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Ah fuck
You probably don't even take the time to remember
Mayonnaise breathe and bracelets
A kiss on the lips
A reward for helping a friend

And I don't quite understand what happened
I don't know what to say anymore

I was nervous that second time around
I stood and waited as you walked through the doors
A kiss on the forehead to erase my worries
But I remember this like yesterday
And you have plenty of girls to keep you busy

Your life is playing games with a stick
And I know you are at your best
But sometimes I wish I had said something serious
Though where would that have gotten us
You scared and me regretting it

Your friend says "He loves you!" when I question why you leave
And then follows "He does that sometimes"
Maybe that was a sign
But all I see is your navy tee and those tan trousers
And your toothy grin when I said something charming

My last day
I spent it with you
Perfect sunshine, you brought me to an orchard
You told me about your mother, I wish I had said something smarter
Draped arms and closed eyes
Talking as if we'd do this again...

And I'm sitting here, haunting my own thoughts
Knowing you're doing alright and not thinking twice
Trying not to compare the "afters" to you
I don't know how I got so attached in three weeks
But that's what happens to a girl like me

Back to that memory
Lost in the forest, clammy hands
Heading to the car and I try to walk slow
You're driving me home and this is gonna be it
You're quiet

One last goodbye
A kiss I try to prolong
"We'll talk soon"
And watching your car drive away
That was my saddest day

Ah fuck
You probably don't even take the time to remember
And I can't forget.