4.

It's hard to think that I might never hear from you again
That the last time we spoke was the last and I didn't even know
I still check my phone every morning and pretend to not have any hope
But I still think that maybe there will be a new email from you
I can't wait for the day when that's not what I think of when I wake up
And the day that I don't even think to check my emails for one from you
Because it's not going to happen, I know deep down that that's it
And it's fucking hard right now
But I know one day your face won't be the first thing I see when I go to sleep and when I wake up
And that when I see that email notification, I won't think of you anymore
I can't fucking wait for that day.